2015 has been such a busy year for me; it just feels as thought it has flown by and I’ve wanted nothing more than a much needed “pause” button on life. It literally feels like it was the start of 2015 only a few months back now. Doesn’t that sound a bit cliché? But most of the time that is true to form for a lot of us. As we are drawing to the end of another amazing, fun-filled yet emotional year that was a huge learning curve for me, it’s important to take the time to have a 2015 reflection.
This is ever more important as so many people are quick to jump onto the new years resolutions bandwagon. For me, personally, you shouldn’t make resolutions just because it’s a new year, if you want to start something start it now. You don’t need to wait until the start of the week, month, or year to commit to something.
As you all know, I’ve been busy preparing for one of the biggest days of my life next year – my wedding. From the moment I got engaged, which was just over a year and a half ago now, it’s all just been non stop. With only 8 months to go until the big day, there is still so much to do from deciding on decor, wedding outfits, our honeymoon just to name a few items from the to-do list.
I’ve got to admit though, it hasn’t been all smooth sailing, there have been times where I’ve argued with both sides of the family, and my fiance over the wedding. Purely wanting to keep it as our special day, and not have anyone else dictate what the wedding should be like. And trust me, that has been one of the biggest struggles of the whole planning procedure! It’s difficult when you are both the first of either sides’ family to get married. But we held our ground, and will continue to do so until the big day.
On the other hand, one of the strongest people I know has now become a shadow of their former self, and it’s extremely difficult when that one person was almost like a rock to you. Although this person will always be, I’ve made it my task to ensure that they are forever reminded of how important they are, and how much I look up to them. This is where the learning curve part of the year comes in; learning to open up to others and communicating what exactly is happening and how I feel about it. This has always been something I’ve struggled with as I’ve never really let down “the barrier” I’ve built over the years.
When I first moved into my first home, it felt like such an accomplishment to me for what I achieved. Here I was, at 19, owning my first flat, the deposit and monthly payments all paid for with my own hard earned savings from when I started working when I was 16.
Inevitably living on your own was bound to become a bit lonely after a while, that’s when Tigger came into the equation. My baby. A cute, black and white moggy with human-like interactions (I’ve actually taught him to open cupboards and go to the sink when he wants water), and a moustache on his face and heart marking on his chest. I got Tigger when he was just 8 weeks old, and a ball of fluff. He is known in the area I live in as the beast of *insert street name here*, although he does have the attitude to match, he’s a softy really.
At around February, the vet informed us that Tigger had Lymphoma, which is a type of cancer found in blood cells, meaning his life expectancy had shortened to just under two years. Considering Tigger is a very young cat, it was obviously awful and horrible news to receive. Now we’ve been focused on his quality of life, which involved trips to the vet every two weeks and rounds of chemotherapy every month. But he is showered with love everyday, and always has our other cat, Misty to keep him company.
My fitness levels are currently at it’s peak, and I’m at a point now where I am happy and confident with my body and it’s shape. Obviously I can push myself harder to get a little more trim and increase my stamina, in turn becoming more toned, but I’m at a point in my life where I wasn’t previously. I don’t ridicule myself as much when I look in the mirror, nor do I feel sorry for myself any-more. I’ve worked hard to get to where I am now, by going to the gym regularly and watching what I eat. No-one can ever tell you it cannot be done, so don’t ever believe anyone if they ever tell you this
2015 has also been the year that my relationship with my fiancé has grown. We not only live together now, but we are planning towards one of our biggest days of ours lives. I’ve learnt that things don’t always need to be in colour co-ordinated order, labels don’t always need to face forward, and it’s OK to let things go slightly. Good-bye slightly OCD Vanisha. I’ve also learnt that I need to spend time working on relationships, not just with my other half but family and friends. I’ve reconnected with childhood friends and family and it’s been amazing catching up with them.
2016 looks like it’s set to be a HUGE year for me, I’m just hoping things slow down slightly over the next 12 months. But it’s exciting as there is so much to look forward to.
What are is your 2015 reflection? Are you looking forward to the New Year?
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